Working hard on not trying so hard

So I'm working hard to let go of things and just be. I think I'm doing pretty good. But then again that's me. I'm going to just let things happen. I will allow myself 150 days from today. I am giving myself a limit. And this is it. I will let go. I will just be. For the next 150 I will not push, ask, or bother. I will just be. I feel I have to give myself a limit on this, for I fear if I don't I won't be true to myself.  So 150 days to see if things improve. If they don't, I will hold myself to this written public promise to me.