Not a Mother day

Every year on today I am filled with mixed emotions. I am thankful that I have so many wonderful mothers in my life. So many women who shaped and molded me into who I am. For that I am glad. But today I am also reminded that I am not a mom. I do not have a child. Of all the goals I make for myself, this is probably the one left unaccomplished  that most disappoints me . It makes me sad that I cannot do this one thing my body is designed to do. It hurts that I am not even thought of on this day. It is so selfish of me to feel this way, but I should be a mom! I never got to deliver a baby, change their diaper, feed them, wash them, hold them, care for them. And because of that I am not a mom. I guess all I want is not to be celebrated on this one day, but to be taken for granted the other 364 days a year while I care for the love of my life. I want to be a mom. I want it so bad it hurts. So to all the moms out there, Happy Mother's Day. Cherish what you have and know how very lucky you are to have the one thing I would give anything for.